wanna go home

it's me typing this entry from Kuching at 135am 14 dec 2010..I rEaLLY wanT TO gO HOME AT THIS MOMENT.I CANT BREATH HERE N I CAN'T FIGHT. MY WALL OF DEFENSE BEING AMBUSH BY THOSE MEMORIES.EVERYTHING WAS STARTED HERE..I TOT I WAS OK I TOT I'M STRONG ENUGH TO FACE THIS.BUT I ALMOST FALL..I WANT GO HOME BADLY...T_T